Friday, April 25, 2008
Fuck you Freud you perverted Vienniese prat
So, im pondering.
Do all of your parents shit you to the point where you detest being in the same room as them?
I was sooking to nat earlier this week and my rant continues.
Since mums been driving me to dandy to get a lift to work lately, ive had to spend considerable more time with her than im used to.
We get in the car and its just past 7am, and its cold and morning obviously. So she lights up a cigarrette, at 7 fucking am... then starts coughing up a lung like she has been since she woke up at 630. Then she rolls down the window (making the heater completely useless) adding to the freezing fucking cold of this god awful morning.
Its 7am, its morning, im already shitty... To have an overweight woman cough her guts up right next to you because shes overweight and a smoker, is a piss off in itself, if you stab your finger, you learn not to do it again, if you fall over you figure out a way not to fall, if you light a smoke and it makes you cough your guts up, surely you stop fucking smoking...
Its also cold as fuck, so im freezing my arse off, howcome she isnt? Is the cold less important than the smoke? Would you rather freeze than not have a smoke? I would rather be warm and have no smoke.
Im not around smoke or smokers anymore so i smell it so much more than i used to, and it makes me sick, on the way to work when its cold i hold my breath and dont breathe, on the way home every time she lights up i open the window and hang my head out like a dog.
Every time she speaks it annoys me too, she curses all the traffic, even people up her arse in the right hand lane, news flash mum, get the fuck out of the lane, or people that overtake on the left, get infront of her and are forced to slow down because of some other fuckwit, see didnt get you far did it dickhead, she proclaims. Or i hate traffic, they should just move for me.
Dont complain about other peoples driving mum, yours isnt crash hot, if i was following you and i wasnt your son, i would abuse you for the way you drive.
Every time she speaks, every time she has a smoke, or coughs, every time im forced to be near her i get the shits. Its not a good thing, its not good to dislike your mother, but i have no patience for her.
She complains constantly, which i do too but i learnt from the best. Every little thing she has a problem with, even things that arent worth complaining about, between her, nat and the chick im getting lifts to work with all i hear is complaining, its no wonder i do it so much too. (sorry natty i love you but you rant on a fair bit soemtimes :P )
In other news, well there isnt any, im slowly working towards a new job, im getting numbers for electrical and air con places, to try and get my apprenticeship, i want it but im apprehensive towards it, not because i dont want to do it, because im scared ill fail. I dont want to start it and get to maths and fail. Technically you dont fail, but if you get to the end of first year and hav'nt completed all of your trade subjects, you dont get paid second year rate, you get paid first year because technically you have not completed it. If it gets bad enough, theyll kick you out. I dont want that and it scares the crap out of me. However at the same time, i fear ending up like dad, who was going to do electrical but didnt, and now he wishes he did. I WILL end up like that if i dont do it, because i will end up like him, in a shitty job.
Also putting it off increases my chances of forgetting all the stuff i learnt at the pre app, which if i have to sit an entry test for a job, will make it harder still, then maths wont be my major problem, everything will.
Ive even gone as far as to re write my resume, its rather unimpressive however imo. I prolly wouldnt hire me.
I feel rather content as i type this tho, i mean, i still dont like my job, i still have 2 non working cars and a big shitty loan with rising interest rates, i still owe nat and my uncle 5k, i still dont have an apprenticeship. But as i type, im as happy as i get.
(by happy i dont mean smiling, i just mean not sulking)
Tuesday, April 08, 2008
Speed date.
Quick 2 cents.
Nat and i joined the gym this week. Hopefully we use it, hopefully we get looking good. Well, hopefully i get looking good, nats good enough already :)
Plenty of gym junkies there, bit intimidating, but is prolly only cause we new, and they keep perving on nat.
Rex engine is still in car, will be sold, another will be sourced, rex will be sold off, as falcon is required to be made work again due to work and hardship of needing a lift every morning.
Another $651 down the drain.
I calculated off the top of my head today how much ive spent on car repairs, i counted just under $12000, that includes the rex engine, the repairs that i didnt get to use, and a whole heap of shit on the falc, but thats off top of my head, i know theres about 3-4k more.
Job is going ok, its still crappy, and im still slowly looking for an apprenticeship. Called some places this week but noones looknig till october.
Ice skating was fun, i hope all enjoyed themselves. Good to see most can do it and those who couldnt tried :)
I hope all your groins were sore the next day like mine was.
I want the photos amy/rick.
Im out of things to say now so thatll do donkey.
Nat and i joined the gym this week. Hopefully we use it, hopefully we get looking good. Well, hopefully i get looking good, nats good enough already :)
Plenty of gym junkies there, bit intimidating, but is prolly only cause we new, and they keep perving on nat.
Rex engine is still in car, will be sold, another will be sourced, rex will be sold off, as falcon is required to be made work again due to work and hardship of needing a lift every morning.
Another $651 down the drain.
I calculated off the top of my head today how much ive spent on car repairs, i counted just under $12000, that includes the rex engine, the repairs that i didnt get to use, and a whole heap of shit on the falc, but thats off top of my head, i know theres about 3-4k more.
Job is going ok, its still crappy, and im still slowly looking for an apprenticeship. Called some places this week but noones looknig till october.
Ice skating was fun, i hope all enjoyed themselves. Good to see most can do it and those who couldnt tried :)
I hope all your groins were sore the next day like mine was.
I want the photos amy/rick.
Im out of things to say now so thatll do donkey.
